Panic.

I sit here watching a movie where the main character botched a relationship up in their early years. Years later the woman he was with is married to someone else, and the main character is talking about how it should have been him. How he could have been the one married to her, how they could have been his kids. And how unhappy he is with his life.

I know it's just a movie, but this scares the freaking crap out of me. Please don't let that be me in 10 years. Please God, please. I want to look back on my past without regret Without this sinking feeling that I won't ever be happy. Please don't let my one chance be gone. That scares me more than anything. It makes me feel terribly hopeless.